M Continued.

M had a history of getting into disagreeable situations with people, whether they be of her own age or adults. She herself did not know how it seemed to happen. It just did. Though there were plenty of opportunites for her to learn to defend herself, her guardians all too often chastised her when she tried to oppose anything. As a result, she never learned to speak cleverly and make witty comebacks. Yet, she could not stay entirely passive either. Her lack of communication only increased her tendency to defend herself by physical means.

M often watched others fight and, during solitary moments, would practice various techniques on her own. She strove to develop muscles and endurance. The problem with all this, though, was that she was terribly lacking in self control. As she grew older, her situation grew worse, and so did her lack of control. She often allowed her temper to get the best of her during difficulties with her guardians. This alone would not have been so hard on her if it were not for the fact that she also possessed a relentless conscience. M hated her lack of control and would lock herself alone in a room and attempt to punish herself for any damage or hurt feelings she may have caused anyone else. Much of the cuts, bruises, and loss of tears (not to mention hair pulled out) was due to her inner turmoil.

With great difficulty and much time, M managed to bring her temper under control, even at the cost of her emotions. As she could not entirely control her feet and fists, M worked to rid herself of strong emotions. She refused to show strong anger or any other emotion, for that matter. The practice tore her from the inside out, and she would often find herself in a corner of an empty room, her knees pulled close to her, rocking back and forth, chanting "i won't give in; I won't give in!" as she fought back tears.
Unfortunately for M, those around her found her lack of emotion disturbing. What was the poor girl to do?